I will share a few secrets with you today on my blog.

1. I suck at sticking with exercise programs.

2. I LOVE FOOD (I guess that is not really a secret).

3. I have a bunch of jeans that are hidden away just waiting for my hips and butt and thighs to fit into them again.

4. I want to wear a bikini

5. Sometimes I am too comfortable in my own slothness.

6. I have to force myself to drink water (I add lemon juice.)

So now that we have those out of the way let me tell you what I am attempting to do about all of the above and give you a little history. First the history (because of course I would start with the second thing listed).

I was not the fat kid in school but I was for sure not the skinny kid. Probably a lot of how I looked came from the fact that I didn’t know how to dress myself properly. In high school I started dressing better and I also played Rugby. So for high school I was at my lowest weight and was very fit (I was 135lbs, and I am 5’6” and I had a lot of muscle), and then I went to college. I know what you are thinking (freshmen 15), but it didn’t happen. I stayed around 140 for my first two years and I looked pretty cute. I walked a lot but I didn’t eat that healthy (a lot of ramen noodles and lucky charms), but I stayed skinny. Third year is where my weight came on, like 40lbs of weight. I don’t know where it came from or how it happened (well I bought a car that didn’t help). I was still playing soccer and I was watching what I was eating but I gained a ton of weight. So that was in 2007 and I have stayed around 180lb since that time. I had a baby and went right back to that, and that is where I am stuck.

So I am a part of a summer weight loss thing with a bunch of girls on facebook (which starts June 21), and I started the 30 Day Shred with Jillian Michaels. It has 3 levels and each level is 10 days. I like that because it is short and I have a much better chance at completing them. Each workout is a little less than 30 minutes which is nice for a busy mom, and I love that she changes what you are doing every 30-60 seconds so just as you are starting to die she tells you only 4 more and you can push through.

So far I have done day 1 and 2 of level 1 and it is pretty intense, but I have lived and I will keep doing it. I took before pictures but I am much to embarrassed to post them just yet since I am wearing little shorts and a sports bra (which means you can see all my not so sexy rolls and my “I had a baby” belly). I know that in 30 days I will not lose 40 lbs which is what I want to lose, but at least it will get me started (hopefully). I also go for walks a lot and many times on those walks I have a 20lb baby on my back in a carrier.

So here’s to bringing out those secret stash of jeans I have hidden and fitting into them.

P.S. for added encouragement I put my before pictures as my background on my computer so that I have to see them A LOT and it drives me nuts and forces me to think about doing my exercises and eating healthy.